Posted in inner space on May 4th, 2008 1 Comment »
it’s never that a person drinks. it’s how they drink that makes them an alcoholic. this particular person was drinking with her husband, then hiding the bottles because her family, who know the couple as teetotalers, “wouldn’t understand”.
that was really my first clue.
symptoms of a problem abounded… from the haphazard way she attacked a project, [...]
Posted in inner space on Sep 26th, 2007 No Comments »
I don’t know how it happened. I went on a retreat and was offered a job. And this was after I told them I was a professional nut. Really, I used to scoff at those soap operas where so-and-so just got of jail and was offered some white-collar spot with no experience. Now I’m living [...]
Posted in finance, inner space on Jul 19th, 2007 No Comments »
I’ve been thinking about how strong the impulse tendency has been in my life and tracing the roots of it. Looking back, I realized that a large part of my impatience stemmed from childhood. (What a surprise.)
I remember reading The House On Mango Street. The book is told from the point of view of Esperanza, [...]
Posted in inner space on Jul 8th, 2007 No Comments »
I don’t know about others, but I always do a mental cringe when a white person starts talking to me about having black friends, or fighting for civil rights, or whatever they think is necessary to get you to give them a pass for being white.
The problem is that you don’t have a pass to [...]
Posted in inner space on Jul 8th, 2007 No Comments »
I love it when the world makes sense. So I was writing this out, and writing is like taking inventory sometimes, and it all came together.
First, we’re going to have to back up about a year, when I first started hanging out at this place. About a week or two of hanging out with the [...]
Posted in inner space on Jun 17th, 2007 No Comments »
This is going to be one of those long, involved things. I’ve been busy mind-mapping, working to find my lay of the land here. So many different factors to cover, integrate, and have it all make sense. Good luck, I think to myself. I’ve been doing this blank for weeks.
So all this introspection and analyzing [...]
Posted in inner space on Jun 16th, 2007 No Comments »
Okay. I am so avoiding doing this blog entry. Like, in huge monstrous ways. I know it will be good for me to write about this. I know it will be a relief to get this off my chest. I know it’s been bugging me, itching away like chicken pox, to just write, and I [...]
Posted in inner space on May 11th, 2007 No Comments »
The nice thing about being crazy is that you stop trying to fit in. Really. You understand you’re a nut and that the sane world and you are two separate things, so all your efforts to re-shape your square-peg-self into a round, curvy world gets dropped by the wayside. You stop pretending. And it’s such [...]
Posted in inner space on Apr 22nd, 2007 No Comments »
I have to give a speech in 28 hours and I am freaking. I’ve done little to no preparation and that doesn’t help matters at all. I feel like one of the candidates on The Apprentice who knows they are losing the task and has all but curled up into the fetal position.
I can’t get [...]
Posted in finance, inner space on Mar 26th, 2007 No Comments »
I don’t know what to do in the grocery store anymore. I’ve been eating before I go, and now, instead of grabbing what appeals to me, I go wandering the aisles like some lost, drifting soul, wondering what on earth I might want later. This is probably why people create menus and shopping lists before they go shopping.
It’s amazing what gets cleaned up when you start focusing on money.
Posted in inner space on Feb 24th, 2007 No Comments »
So I’m talking with a lady at a potluck. She’s interested in starting a raw food business. She just got her certificate, so she’s an official Raw Food Something and she wants to get to work starting a raw food business.
Great! I think. I’ve been thinking about starting a business as well and not only [...]